My Fear of Writing

Writing a blog can actually be a daunting task. Some people write for fun, while others write as a job. Then there are others, like me, who write for a school assignment. Writing is so personal. When you write you put your words out there for everyone to see, read, and critique, or not, maybe no one reads what you write, maybe no one cares. It's interesting the anxiety felt by some, when putting words down on paper, or electronicly. It seems like once these words are posted anyone can read them, and see into my soul. That may seem like a giant leap. I'm just writing about nonsense, just my thoughts as they come up, but aren't your thoughts and emotions what make you a person? Aren't your thoughts your very being? In a forum such as this where I sit here alone writing to no one but myself I still feel like my words are vulnerable. I know that seems silly for those who write everyday, for those whose words are read by millions, for those who are critiqued in front of the world; however, my words are hardly ever noticed. Until I recently started back to school, it had been almost 15 years since someone had criticized my writing. In most office environments no one says a word about a memo with misspellings, or a brief with bad grammar. Most seem to skip write passed the errors, and those that find the errors think it to be rude to correct you, so we just go on not thinking much about that everyday sort of writing. Then I throw myself into this. Into writing for "fun". This is for a school project but I could have chosen something I felt more comfortable with. Instead, I chose something that is challenging for me, and I am hoping in the end I will be a better person for it, and possible be a better writer, and one who enjoys writing. Hopefully, this has opened the door to my days of blogging.